we all can be stank from time to time. regular meditation doesn’t erase normal human emotions from your actions but it does offer choices + your ability to chose has more intent than the typical reaction we so often subject ourselves + others to.
I meditated… Felt good… Had a frustrating interaction, borne out of deep fear, + I vomited a bit of rage.
In it all, I chose. Even in choice, I felt so much remorse. Instantaneous remorse.
I walked away. Deep breaths. And then I went back + pleaded for forgiveness. For the hurt I caused to mtg loved one + to myself.
My practice gives me something I would not have otherwise… to be in the present, be accountable for my actions, without dwelling on any past transgressions as a way to justify my own bad behavior, + give voice to my wrongdoing + allow forgiveness to be given.
This is love in action.
Art by Rusia Mohiuddin